Things Just Got Awkward

It's not normally my inclination to post my personal problems in such a public way; specifically not my sexual problems. But the weirdest thing happened to me before, and since I don't really have a mom I can ask about it, I'm going to do the next best thing.

First of all, let me start off by saying that I am a virgin. I have never had sex.

Second of all, I am a chronic masturbator, but not in the way most people think.

I started when I was about 17, and it kind of skyrocketed when I realized that if you keep going, something good happens. I used to stop when I got tingly.  I later discovered that I can only do it with one hand and it has to be a specific motion, as most women are. And I won't let a guy try it because none of them listen to me when I try to explain that the female anatomy cannot take a guy rubbing us like a penis. >:[ It hurts very much so, sir.

So anyway, figure on twice a week since seventeen. Usually when I do this, I do it dry because for some reason it's the only way I know how. I don't use any kind of lubrication or anything because I haven't had the gall to test any of them out. It usually takes about fifteen minutes, if I'm going slow, and five if I'm going fast. Most nights I can get between 2-3 good ones.

I have never orgasmed.

Well, today, on the second run through I noticed that there was a gushing feeling. One minute I was dry, and then I was wet. Very, very wet. My first notion was that I wet the bed, but then I realized that I have never, nor could I ever, recall a time that happened in my life (sans the time I was four and too sick to move, and I was beaten raw for it). Upon further investigation (and I'm not ashamed of this, because I was confused), I discovered that the liquid was the consistency of water. Clear and odorless.

It was then that I discovered that I was a female ejaculator.

And I don't know if I should be proud because of how rare it is, or terrified because I have never heard of a guy enjoying that...